My Anxiety/Depression Story
Anxiety and depression is a touchy subject, however I hope by sharing my story I can help someone out there. These days, it has become a 'trend' to have some sort of disorder related to anxiety and depression which myself and many others find stupid and offensive because those who really do experience it really do suffer. Not many people in my life besides close family and friends know my story or what I go through on an everyday basis and in opening up I know that it will help in my recovery.
A Little Back Story
At age 9 I developed a very unknown condition called Misophonia, in which I will explain in another post in detail. This condition causes me to experience anxiety after hearing certain sounds and after years resulted in me developing an anxiety disorder; from this lead to the depression. Everyday it can feel like I'm drowning and on fire at the same time.
For as long as I can remember I have experienced anxiety but it didn't affect my everyday life. Once I hit the age of 14 the anxiety became noticeably worse and started to affect my every move. As an outgoing child, come high school I stuck to the people I knew and when friends were lost I started to care less and less. With cancelled plans and many absences at school I knew that something was wrong and it wasn't normal to be experiencing what I was. My anxiety causes me to overthink and tells me that I'm in danger when in reality I'm not; hence the fight or flight response and I tend to keep earphones in whenever I can to drown out the surrounding sound and calm myself.
Depression and anxiety come hand in hand sharing many similarities however being polar opposites at the same time. When my mood darkened and I started staying in bed for days on end, nothing seemed to help. I was unable to find the motivation to do anything, slept too much or too little and stopped looking after myself. Many activities I used to enjoy turn into chores and I find that different factors like schoolwork and being under stress can affect my severity of depression. From both the anxiety and depression, physical symptoms can occur which have resulted in me experiencing headaches on a daily basis, fatigue and digestive issues.
Having a support system, I find is the most important thing in battling anxiety and depression. For me, my biggest support is my family but especially my mum and my boyfriend. I would not be able to battle this without them and I'm so grateful to have them by my side everyday. If I'm ever down or snap at them they understand that during that time, many thoughts and emotions are rushing through my mind and that I can't control what's going on. They are constantly checking up on me and give the best cuddles!
If anyone else suffers with the same or similar experiences, I would love to hear from you and have a chat!